Fear of Being Abandoned after Sharing I was Raped
In shadows deep where silence dwells,
A heart once full, now softly swells,
With whispers of a tale untold,
Of pain and fear, both young and old.
I gathered courage, breath held tight,
To share my truth, to seek the light,
But in the telling, doubts took flight,
What if they turn and flee the night?
The words like stones weighed on my tongue,
A song of sorrow, yet unsung,
I trembled there beneath their gaze,
Afraid the love would somehow fade.
The faces near, they filled with care,
But shadows lurked, I felt their stare,
What if my voice, a gentle breeze,
Would drive them back like autumn leaves?
I spoke of wounds both seen and not,
Of battles fought, of lessons taught,
Yet fear entwined with every breath,
That they would claim a sudden death.
Would hands that held me in the dark,
Now pull away, extinguish spark?
The bond I cherished, would it fray,
If they could see my heart's decay?
Each word was like a fragile thread,
That spun my story, what I dread,
Yet in that moment, raw and real,
I hoped for kindness, hope to heal.
But in the silence, doubts would creep,
What if my truth would make them weep?
Their sorrow might become their chain,
And in their grief, I’d feel the pain.
Yet still I spoke, my heart laid bare,
A plea for love, for them to care,
Through trembling lips, my fears took flight,
Would they still stand with me tonight?
For every tale of loss and strife,
I yearned for warmth, for hope of life,
But whispers lingered, shadows stirred,
What if my truth was best unheard?
In softest tones, I shared my plea,
I longed for them to stay with me,
Yet echoes played, disturbing fears,
Of cold goodbyes, and silent tears.
But midst despair, a light did shine,
A heart that beat, that felt as mine,
They took my hand, they held me tight,
And banished shadows with their light.
"No fear of leaving," they softly said,
"We'll walk with you, where hearts are bled,
Your truth is safe within our care,
No need for walls, we’ll meet you there. "
And in that moment, chains unveiled,
I felt the love that never failed,
For sharing wounds and deepest fears,
Can weave a bond that time endears.
So here I stand, both brave and bare,
With scars that speak of love and care,
Though fear of loss may always dwell,
In truth, there blooms a stronger well.
And if they leave, I’ll stand my ground,
For in my heart, love still is found,
With every tale of pain I share,
I’ll find the strength that’s always there.
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